OK, it's been awhile, a long while, but that doesn't mean I've been sitting around doing nothing. Exactly 10 months ago, I had surgery to address my gender dysphoria and now find myself fully healed as myself. There has been an adjustment period getting used to the way things are now and will be for the remainder of my life. However, I am not disappointed with the final outcome nor the prospects for my future.
I have been dealing with different stresses now, mostly doing with work and the way I am treated now that I am legally female. I didn't believe that such a dramatic change would occur, given the fact I am still at the same dealership, working with the same people. Yet there really is a noticeable change in how people see and view me, treat me, and joke around. I have been relegated to the 'women's' world in business and I am no longer seen as a pertinent member of the management staff, now mostly a place marker for the corporate model if anyone asks. My ideas are quickly dismissed, yet amazingly, some are resurrected later by someone else as a new idea and then accepted.
I have gone back to school to finish my degree and then I plan to study computer sciences at the local tech college, getting a degree there as well. My understanding is that since I will have a BA already, even an AA degree program will become a BS because I have completed all the core class requirements...which would be cool if true. I then plan to take myself away from this place and provide myself with a more secure life.
I am not dating, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't love to. Living in a small town, relatively speaking, a lot of people know me and what I have done. This makes dating almost impossible, but I guess I can dream. I have starting getting out a bit more, even though work demands so much of my time. Maybe I'll stumble into someone who'll accept me for whom I am and then decide that I make their life better by being a part of it. That would be nice, but probably being dreamy about the whole thing.
This was just a quick update and I have a lot going on in my mind, so probably need to start writing it down.
